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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2010
4:33 pm
Hey. I'm wondering if there is anyone out there with schizophrenia or who's partners have it. My ex-boyfriend is schizophrenic and we're still friends and its not totally impossible that we will be more then friends again. I'm looking for some sort of been-there, done-that kinds of stories that could help with what I'm dealing with.

Monday, February 22nd, 2010
8:01 pm
very new and a bit freaked out
this is not the first time i've posted anything about myself, but its one of the first times i've posted somewhere i can easily be found by people i know.

my name is Kiley, im 17, i live close to Chicago, about a 20 minute ride from union station by train. the only thing i know is that i like girls. i cant decide on boys or not, but i know i definitely like girls. im not sure exactly why i joined this group, i think i am just looking for friends, close or not. no, i have never had a relationship, and, honestly, i dont know what i would do if i were in one. If anyone wants to just chat, let me know, i'll try to remember to check LJ at least once or twice a week.

Current Mood: scared
Sunday, February 7th, 2010
8:54 pm
Hey Boys
It's been a few years since I was a teenager (I'll be 24 next month), but I wanted to introduce myself to you guys. My name is Jay Fox, and I just opened my Livejournal. I was also appointed maintainer over at the_gloryhole, so be sure to check us out! Any questions, drop a comment. Otherwise, feel free to add me!
Sunday, December 13th, 2009
1:15 pm
Hi, I'm new here and sooooooo confused.

So this passed summer I went to spain for a month. I'm 17. I'm a guy. I went on this trip with a group of 30 people around my age, it was an educational program. I signed up to go last october and two months later I found out that one of my closest childhood friends was going as well! The thing is, I hadn't talked to her for about 10 years. She's two years younger than me, is way more popular than me and i'm going to be flying to spain with her and speaking to her for the first time in years. She's beautiful. We instantly clicked and I fell hard. For that whole month, we hugged, cuddled, she even kissed me on the cheek. On the plane ride back from spain, she just fell asleep in my lap and I rubbed her back and held her hand. One time during the flight she sat up and leaned against the window. I noticed and I wanted to cuddle so I pretended to nod off and fall on her shoulder. I only sat my head there for about 2 seconds and then "realized" where I was and took my head off of her. She then said "wait" and fell into my lap again. I long for her touch everyday and I've barely even seen her since our days in spain. This is probably because our friends our different, she's more popular, and she gets all the guys she wants. Christmas break is coming up and our friend we met on the trip is coming into town from new york. I'm hoping we can all get together and my friend and I can rekindle what we had on that last plane ride. Heaven. THE most confusing part of this whole situation is this:

I thought I was gay. I am sexually attracted to both male and females. I am only emotionally attracted to women though. I am so confused and I don't want to come out to everyone just in case I DO love her and i AM straight. maybe I'm bi, i don't know, but I'm so stressed right now. HELP
Sunday, November 8th, 2009
2:07 am
S.O.S. call it what you want...
I'm living in a dilemma.. I'm 18 and really boggled about life. I'm as they call it, still in the closet and it's not working out real good for me.

I'm tired of living a lie and at this stage, I would really want to be with a guy... At least start looking... But it ain't easy coming out, especially when you're in an environment/society that is really shallow in this matter. I've been surrounded in a constant and stable, Christian environment but facing this sexuality problem. I'm just confused about a lot of things and never really found the help I need. I would definitely want to be out there, experiencing life but coming out in my position seems so out of reach.

I was thinking of only coming out when I'm older or at least when I'm legal and no longer living where I am. But I feel that I can't wait any longer. On the other hand, i fear rejection and persecution...

Any remarks or steps I could take? If I wait, is it worth it?
Thursday, November 5th, 2009
11:48 pm
Im going to have a bit of a moan >.
Is it just me or when you are out do people start treating you like a novelty? Like next weekend my friend is organising a party, and I said that wouldn't he rearrange it cause I'm sleeping round a guy's, and he just said that he would be having it anyway and not rearranging it around my "bum sex". Which made me feel absolutely shit, mostly cause I know that if I was anyone else saying they were doing something then they he would re-arrange it.
And to me in the UK it always happens. And I think you will all say "Get better friends" and what not... but its not easy for me, cause I thought they were the friends that treated me as equals, and well there isn't anyone else that I can find in a small. rural school.

Anyway it turns out the guy cancelled so I can go to the party,  which I suppose is a good thing, but there I will feel so out of place it will be unreal, as my best friend will be with her bf, the host will be trying to be with this other girl, and the other guy going will be shit faced. So I would prefer to go to the guy's friends anyway... but I still feel like a novelty.
And well this weekend something is happening... and I thought it was sorta a thing with this other bi guy, but our mutual friends have taken it over, and completely destroyed the plans that I wanted to do. And so it feels my opinion on the matter doesnt actually matter cause I'm gay.

Maybe Im just being paranoid, and have noone else to talk to, but does anyone else ever feel like this? Cause its really getting to me at the moment.

Current Mood: aggravated
2:12 pm
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Monday, October 19th, 2009
7:50 pm
I live on Long Island. I'm a senior in high school. It seems like the majority of the people here (or at least my generation) are accepting of homosexuality, but then again there are those who...very much aren't. Namely, the devoutly-religious-to-a-fault types.

There is one boy like this who frequents the same circles as me. He instigated an argument on my facebook page over the summer (on one of those "Should gay marriage be legal?" polls) and I promptly deleted him from my friends and tried to forget about him. However, school started a few weeks ago, and there is just no way I will be able to avoid him.

This morning he and my friends had a heated debate about homosexuality. He said that God condemns homosexuals to hell, blah blah blah, and my friends had the more reasonable side of the argument. I wasn't present, but I showed up just as the bell rang so I didn't have to hear his idiocy. But I know it'll come up again, if not tomorrow then sometime in the near future.

I'm an atheist, so obviously I don't have any thoughts as to how God might view homosexuals or whatever. I just think that anyone who would wish to deny me my rights because of my sexual orientation is really stupid. So how can I deal with the religious homophobes? The only thing I can think of is this list. What can I do to make him understand my point of view or at least get off my back about this?

It's so frustrating that someone is basically calling me sub-human because of reasons that I don't even think exist. :( Thanks for listening.
Friday, October 16th, 2009
12:29 pm
The Daily Mail Publishes Homophobic Article Regarding Death of Boyzone Singer
The Daily Mail, a daily British tabloid newspaper has published a disgusting homophobic piece about the death of Boyzone singer Stephen Gately.

Thursday, September 10th, 2009
1:31 am
Hope you all are doing fine, anyway I wanted to bring up the topic of homophobic people, because I recently read an article that pretty much "theorizes" homophobic people may b "harboring gay urges" and I just wanted to see what you guys think of that.
URL: http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=single-angry-straight-male
If you want to read what I have to say about that, I posted an entry in my journal. :D

Current Mood: thoughtful
Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
7:56 pm
okay this may sound totally pathetic and trust me it actually is.
 i go to bording school and the second week i had allready made like all the friends i could need.
one day me and my friend were talking and he said his back was really sore and i said hey do you want a massage
he look at me funny cause i knew i was gay and i knew he was straight, but he accepted the offer
that night i spent about two hours rubbing down his back (i know that sounds really gay)
the next day i was in my room and he tackles me and says hey wanna give me a massag again
he is totally gorgeous so of course i said yes if he would reciprocate 
this continued on for the next few weeks. there would be very little talking but a huge amount of sexual tension 
i knew that he was getting turned on cause he kept on getting a boner (he would have to adjust himself)
so after a few weeks we would talk, and i mean talk, he would tell me his problems and i would listen and be a good best gay friend 
so when he gave me a massage i would talk too and he would listen to me and try and help with my many problems. 
after the talking started i started to realize that i had started to completely fall for him. 
after i realized that i would feel uncomfortable around him but i would still give him massages and be his shrink. 
he would do things too like when he gave me massage he would blow in my ear, i would ask why he did that and he would say i dont know in a cute shy way
and he would nuzzle into my neck and stuff
the question that i want an answer to was what do y'all think i should do, i feel like i love him but i dont know what he would do if he knew and i dont know how to continue being his friend.
Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
9:21 pm
help wth school nd coming out.
i need help because im going to a new school and i dnt kno if i should come out to the ppl there or not. at all my other schools, im out, but im not sure how the ppl here will react. help me out here and tell me wat i should do.

Current Mood: scared
Friday, July 31st, 2009
12:40 am
Book Giveaway!

Book Giveaway!
Want a free copy of Lee Bantle’s David Inside Out? We’re giving away two copies! Send an email to
IlanaWrites@gmail.com with your name to enter!

Read a snippet of the review below and head to www.ilanawrites.com to find out more...

For most of us, high school is a balancing act. For David Dahlgren, it’s a disappearing act. Drudged down by the shame of his conflicting feelings, David tries to find a way to make a part of himself just go away. He thinks maybe he can outrun it on track team, or even drown it in the affections of his adoring girlfriend, Kick. Unfortunately, these hopeful delusions vanish when his unwanted feelings focus themselves on fellow teammate, Sean. Sean’s contradictory advances seem only to fuel David’s doubts. Their relationship merely confirms what Mom always says, “You can’t love someone else, until you love yourself.”
David’s turbulent journey into sexual self-acceptance is a familiar one to many young men and women. Lee Bantle hit’s the nail on the head with this poignantly intimate young adult novel.

Mod Note: Sorry if this isn't allowed! It is an actual giveaway and the book is lgbt so I figured this would be relevant and appreciated to anyone who wanted a good rec or chance of winning a free book :)
Thursday, August 20th, 2009
7:30 pm
I Hate Waiting
Is it me, or am I the only gay teenager, who, when trying to come out to his parents, received a "you're not old enough to know" answer of denial?  It has been a few months since this happened, and since summer offers much thinking time, I've only become sad and annoyed.  I've started fully excepting it by now, and truthfully the only thing keeping me from being comfortable with myself is knowing my parents are comfortable with me - the trouble is they are too stupid and stubborn to except that even though I'm 14 going on 15 I know very well which gender I enjoy more.  It hurts me, since my two best friends except it so easily while they deny it until they see I'm too confused to give them a straight answer anymore.  What's perhaps worse is that out of the two, the one I'm closest to, my mom, is disgusted by gay actions much more so than my dad, although he looked like he was thinking it was a joke or proof of my adolescent stupidity.  And unfortunatly I have no patience, but I have too much sense to confront them again.  What's a guy to do? 

Current Mood: annoyed
Wednesday, July 15th, 2009
4:01 am
I am new to LJ, i have no idea what i am doing on here. i am gay, i have not told people that i am, they all just assume that i am, ha ha, i just don't have enough guts to own up to it and let them know they are right. i think it is just because i don't want them to be right i guess.
i don't know how to go about telling someone, should i go to my family? or go to my few remaining friends? I think i am lucky because i have a sister that is a lesbian so i am thinking she would understand for sure, she is open about it to some people including me. i am just worried of what might happen when i tell her, will it make us closer or, i don't know.... can anyone help me? i feel overwhelmed by my own thoughts.

Current Mood: stressed
Saturday, July 11th, 2009
2:00 am
Have peeped the most beautiful
Pride parade, Tel Aviv, June 2009. Choose most-most!

(The others 25 beautiful men here)
Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
10:49 pm
Gay man in critical condition after suspicious police raid on gay bar
Police officers in Fort Worth, Texas raided "The Rainbow Lounge," a gay bar for supposed "drunkeness" and arrested seven individuals and left one patron, Chad Gibson, a 26 year-old gay man, in the hospital in critical condition and mental trauma, specifically a blood clot in his brain. It is unknown whether or not he will survive.

Officers claim that they were "touched inappropriately," resulting in the arrests, though no one was charged with assault. The Chief of Police Jeff Halstead made this alarming statement in support of his officers:

"You're touched and advanced in certain ways by people inside the bar, that's offensive," he said. "I'm happy with the restraint used when they were contacted like that."

However, patrons at the bar and eye-witnesses claim that no one was sexually harassed and that patrons were staying out of the officers' way. Others claim that the officers then singled out bar patrons, especially more effeminate ones. They also have cell phone photos showing a story different from that told by the raiders and their Chief of Police, specifically the unacceptable and questionable force utilized during the raid, specifically showing 5 police officers wrestling Gibson--a 160 lb man half their size--to the ground. Included in the photos are the dent int he wall where a patron's head was smashed into the wall. Officers initially stated that Gibson had fallen outside the bar and received his head trauma, but later revealed that it had indeed occurred during the raid and arrest.

You can read the full story and eye-witness testimony here.


It's 40 years after Stonewall and this kind of crap is still happening in the US! Clearly the officers are willing to use the "Gay Panic" defense to justify their completely unnecessary brutality. A man is in critical condition with the threat of death or a severe head trauma because of a raid that had no justification in the first place and ended in brutality over an occurrence that looks like from photos and testimony never even happened.

This is completely unacceptable! And for the Chief of Police to release a statement suggesting that Gibson should be thankful that all he has is a life-threatening condition that could kill him when no one was arrested for the alleged "assault" is completely disgusting. How can you expect your story to hold water when you have eye witnesses refuting everything that your men did with photo evidence, when your men have to recall their claim that the victim "injured himself," and when you didn't charge anyone with the alleged assault you claim justified your actions?

This is a crock and we need to get angry.

You can contact the Fort Worth Police Department here:

Fort Worth Police Department
350 W. Belknap Street Fort Worth, TX 76102
(817) 392-4000 fwpdweb@fortworthpd.com

Media Contact (Sgt. Criado) (817) 392-4214

Internal Affairs (complaints on officers) (817) 392-4270

Joel Burns
, who is the openly gay city council member pushing for an investigation, could use your support too. You can e-mail him at: Joel.Burns@fortworthgov.org. His number is (817) 392-8809.

You can also pressure the other members of the city council:

Councilmember W.B. "Zim" Zimmerman

Councilmember Danny Scarth

Councilmember Frank Moss

Councilmember Jungus Jordan

Councilmember Carter Burdette

..and let's not forget the Mayor of Fort Worth:

Mayor Mike Moncrief

The HRC has also issued a statement here: Read

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Saturday, June 13th, 2009
6:27 pm
i dont want to be depressing but dont y'all ever feel really alone
i know new york is supposed to be one of the openist places in the world
but why is everyone still in the closet
ugh i am sick of this BS 
Monday, July 6th, 2009
5:00 pm
My introduction (Hi!)

I'm 14 going on 15 and loving live journal!  I'm gay, but not out to anyone but my two best friends.  I haven't made many friends on LJ yet, so I decided to come and meet everyone here on gayteens!  :)  I love reading and writing and manga, and am a major dork.  Message me if you want to chat, I'm always looking for new friends!  Adios!

Current Mood: bored
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